Wonderlust ♥

well you , if you want me to stay , i would never leave
but you , make bad choices like i do , believe the wrong people like i do
the irony is the euphemism , that having no regrets make the choices okay , and pious hope makes a person justified . i could never fault you for that , when i embrace such non-conformity habitually . i just need to say goodbye

\\ You're mad thinking you could ever save me ,
not looking like that \\

Taking one thing off my to do checklist by blogging today !
took a total of two things off my checklist actually , so score for me . having some problems with the font today so apologies in advance if this turns out too small . just squint a little okay ?

i know i know , it's probably good i get back to blogging- i keep getting writer's block lately, anywhere and everywhere . i mayhaps be rusty and there's no time like now , to get back in shape for writing and drawing , seeing as to how i can't get back in shape literally right now .

just had my wisdom tooth surgery on Saturday ; i ended up extracting two wisdom teeth instead of one . both had cavities and were decaying even though one of them were hidden in my gum , which is why i didn't manage to account for that particular tooth . although i wasn't mentally prepared to remove two teeth , i'm glad i went ahead with it !

cuz now i don't have to worry about my other tooth being a bother and having to undergo surgery once again . tbh , i think i have a phobia of surgery . i hate anything seemingly invasive and abstain from medicine too . so take it from me that it's not as scary as it sounds . i was pretty relaxed throughout the process since my dentist told me what he was doing all the way . the only point where i wasn't relaxed was when i confused feeling with pain and was worried the anesthetic was wearing off . think i got a tad too many shots :x 

on hindsight , i suppose surgeons always know what they are doing . 

well , i did my surgery at raffles medical dental in case you are interested cuz it went pretty awesome . and also because i got dissolvable stitches heh . 

For the recovery process , i only took one day of painkillers on the first day because i was worried it would be too painful . didn't hurt at all on the second day , just bruising and aching . erm , no visible physical bruises but the feeling is there . as for diet , i had one day of cereal on the first day , moved on to porridge and soup the second , pasta for the third . can't wait to get back to solid food cuz i loveee rice and generally survive on a carb based diet . i think i got fatter during the past 2 days as i keep snacking because the food i had didn't feel enough . 

wisdom teeth surgery didn't whet my appetite at all . an absolute paradox in a bad way . i finally feel more like myself today with almost no snacks so hurray for that !

productivity during my recuperation period has so far been horrible . the first two days i was too tired to do anything productive and kept sleeping / wanting to sleep . today well , it's perking up ! let's hope i keep at it the next two more days before i go back to work . 

cheers , xoxo :)

 

So...

i'm on the last leg- and by last leg i mean last chapter of my fire emblem conquest right now .
therefore , i started on revelations because i couldn't bear to finish conquest yet .
HAHAHA very typical i know .

right now i'm chapter 15 on revelations which admittedly is much harder for me to play compared to conquest . and not because of the chapters , cuz conquest wins hands down .  after all , it was so much harder to get my characters through the chapters safely in conquest . why revelations is more difficult is because ; marriage candidates x 2 , available pairings x 2 and available classes x2 .

this further translates to decisions on available skills, children's hair colours and supports/pairings i like . and i totally can't deal .


however , between typing this post and playing revelations , i've progressed 4 chapters (from 11 to 15) , and confirmed all my pairings !

let's start with my avatar first , this is my second design
everything is different from my first avatar design save the facial mark

her stats this time round are:

         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

3

-1

2

0

-3

2

0

i think . 

my favourite kids from conquest are hands down velouria , siegbert and midori .

i went with Keaton x Camilla for Velouria with:
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

5

0

0

1

-1

4

0

since my pairings worked in conquest , im keeping Charlotte! Siegbert and Kaze! Shigure (which translates to Azura! Midori)

Siegbert:
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

6

0

0

2

3

0

-3

Midori and Shigure:
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

-1

1

4

7

-1

-3

2

and ... my other pairings would be-

Rinkah! Dwyer
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

2

-1

1

2

0

3

0

Beruka! Soleil
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

1

1

5

-2

2

2

-1

Effie! Mitama
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

6

-2

-1

3

2

-1

2

Setsuna! Kisaragi
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

2

1

5

2

1

0

-2

 Oboro! Nina
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

0

0

1

5

0

2

1

Nyx! Rhajat
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

1

5

-2

5

1

-2

1

Elise! Ophelia
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

0

5

0

1

3

-2

1

Peri! Hisame
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

3

1

-1

0

1

1

3

 Sakura! Sophie
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

2

3

2

2

0

0

0

 Selena! Caledori
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

-1

1

2

1

0

5

0

Mozu! Selkie
         str     mag         skl       spd        lck        def        res

2

1

-1

4

3

-1

1

probably

Hinoka! Forrest
Felicia! Percy
Kagero! Shinonome
 
pretty niche right ?

however these pairings will leave either benny or arthur unmarried :/

so i may change rinkah! dwyer to hana! dwyer , giving rinkah to benny for ignis .
the only problem is i dont exactly like hana supports with jakob !

for myself , i'm kinda stuck between Ryoma and Saizo-

Saizo for a cuter Kana (seriously what's up with the limited hair colour for Kana (m)) . but MU hair colour looks better on Shinonome . probably Saizo though since he is definitely more smexy .

you're no good for me
just behind the wall
it's not a dream at all
it's a free fall

turn on the radio
and the words fall out , but they got no place to go
wasted on you , high on the fumes
know i should let you go
but the world won't stop , and all i got , 
is your ghost

tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up

-edited 13.03.2016-

*warning*

This is going to be a super lengthy post , kind of like my fire emblem fates quick guide that i can use for self reference .

Disclaimer: please note that i haven't played the game for myself and the information i use is basically complied from various websources which i can't guarantee authenticity for

that said , this post is practically pointless to read if you have zero interest or relevance with fe fates ! and it's gonna be incredibly geeky lol .

to start off , here is my customized unit :

created via this link from serenesforest; http://serenesforest.net/app/kamui/

between birthright and nohr , i've decided on nohr because of ...

marriage candidates .

because Flannel/Keaton is possibly the only one whose character design i like in totality:


as a bonus , since the avatar stats are great ,  the more children the avatar has , the better .

Velouria and Kana:


here are Flannel's stats:

Str: 3  Skl: -2  Spd: -1  Def: 2  Res: -1

my avatar's asset will be strength and flaw will be skill resulting in:
Str: 3  Skl:  -1 Def  : 1

therefore , the childrens' stats would be:
Str: 7  Mag: 1  Skl: -2  Lck: 1  Def: 4     
(pass down better odds and draconic hex)

for all the children , their stats would be the sum of their parent's stats + 1
(each characters maximum stats can be found here)
(and each class stats here)

i would have tried to improve their combined (or children) skill stat but for my own character , the stats above are my preferred , especially for the kind of class i go for , so there's no compromising that . you can use this link for easy calculation: http://tinyurl.com/o4gs9zr

my character's own stats for a wyvern lord:
Str: 36  Mag: 25  Skl: 32  Spd: 29  Lck: 28  Def: 35  Res: 26

dark blood:
Str: 35  Mag: 31  Skl: 27  Spd: 32  Lck: 27  Def: 30  Res: 32

berserker:
Str: 43  Mag: 25  Skl: 31  Spd: 33  Lck: 25  Def: 28  Res: 25

revenant knight:
Str: 34  Mag: 30  Skl: 27  Spd: 27  Lck: 25  Def: 32  Res: 31

anddd children for easy reference

my pairings:

Dwyer (Jakob x Elise)
Str: 2  Mag: 2  Skl: 1  Spd: 2  Lck: 1  Def: -2  Res: 1
or

Shigure and Midori (Azura x Kaze) - Pass down warding blow? and replicate
Str: -1  Mag: 1  Skl: 4  Spd: 7  Lck: -1  Def: -3  Res: 2

Sophie (Silas x Camilia) - Pass down luna and savage blow
Str: 3  Mag: 0  Skl: 4  Spd: 2  Lck: -2  Def: 2  Res: 0

Nina (Niles x Pieri) - Pass down pass and bloodthrist or luna
Str: 0  Mag: 1  Skl: -1  Spd: 5  Lck: 1  Def: -1  Res: 4

Soleil (Lazward x Mozume) - Pass down sol and aptitude or bowfaire
Str: 2  Mag: 1  Skl: 4  Spd: 1  Lck: 3  Def: 0  Res: -1

Ophelia (Odin x Beruka) - Pass down lifetaker and savage blow
Str: 0  Mag: 2  Skl: 4  Spd: -2  Lck: 2  Def: 3  Res: -1

Ignis (Benoit x Nyx) - Pass down Luna and vengeance
Str: 1  Mag: 4  Skl: 1 Def: 2  Res: 3

Forrest (Leo x Felicia) - Pass down lifetaker and sol
Str: -3  Mag: 5  Skl: 1  Lck: 1 Res: 4

Percy (Arthur x Effie) - Pass down sol and luna DONE !
Str: 5  Mag: 1  Skl: 3  Spd: 2  Lck: -2  Def: 1  Res: -1



here are some important points which is an excerpt from the forum:

-levels do not reset to 1 when reclassing
-eternal seals expand your level cap (40 being the max, probably)
-once promoted, you cannot reclass into a unpromoted class
-you can still get your unpromoted class skills after reclassing, even if promoted.
(Great Knight reclass lv 7 , Lv 8 (Get Cav skill 1) , Lv 9 (Cav skill 2) , Lv 9 (Great Knight Skill 1)
-children skill inheritance works just like Awakening: the last skill in the parent's slot is passed to child
-you can only get galeforce with the item ebon wing (which reclasses any character to dark falcon), however ... how to acquire ebon wing sounds like a pain

the leveling and reclassing has to be done somewhat differently , especially seeing i can't grind (i.e. replay levels) in nohr . T__T

okay this is as long as it gets .

hope you found this useful too , ciao !

it's so subtle
i'm in trouble
but i'd love to be in trouble with you

and so... my first post of 2016 ,

i did my hair purple !

yep , just the ends as usual and im liking it so far :B

following the below chart, my favourite shade of purple is mauve .
depending on the lighting and filters i use , i manage to achieve a mauve shade pretty often .
the only downside is, my most preferred filter for my hair may not apply to the overall picture .


after this stint , i probably will not be able to decide whether to keep purple or revert back to ash brown . or maybe ash grey ?

well this is somewhat free advertising but i woke super early to colour my tresses at snips avenue , boon keng branch .

just in case you were wondering .

now that's very much enough about my hair .

moving on .

i've given some thought and conceded that fulfilling wants would be something that makes us all happy ; but what's more important are needs which some may not even have the luxury of having .

i guess the first step is to recognize what we have and be happy with it , as contrary to popular belief , contentment does not equate to happiness . i am easily contented but not easily elated . it also works to not overthink , trust , yet know where to draw the line . this concept applies for my money at least !

i occasionally give (without expecting anything in return)- not more than what i can afford of course , but somehow i always get what i give and sometimes more in return . i speak of giving in terms of the people around me . and getting back not from the same people (although it happens sometimes), but rather from others or the environment . this year though , i will be making some donations as well , animals first of course . though i like to hoard wealth when i can , there is no point in being too selfish . and also cut down on my excessive spending habits where possible , to a point that i am still kept happy and well maintained .

haha i know merlyn is the same as me when it comes to how we think for this !
(although she is more of an extremist when it comes to spending and saving)

funny how things have a way of working themselves out when we don't put too much thought to it 

December post ! Although I missed my favourite November but hey , better late than never .

It's a little pathetic that every year in December I happen to somehow resolve to have closure but in reality it only really happens a year or two later . The paradox of knowing whats probably best but taking a gamble with the intention to salvage important ties and whatnot but then realizing eventually it's a lost cause . Too bad because when the resentment tides over , such things are only important by matter of perspective . Some ties are just in an inverse relationship with contentment .

Sigh . Just forgetting it . Sad is better than bitter anyway .

Moving on , appreciating the little things in life , exercise and work has been pretty consistent and I hope it stays that way . Arts and crafts have been too little so I gotta work on that .


Will be right back up next time ! :)

it's a little blurry how the whole thing started
i don't even really know what you intended
thought that you were cute and you could make me jealous
i poured it down, so i poured it down

next thing that i know i'm in a hotel with you
you were talking deep like it was mad love to you
you wanted my heart but i just liked your tattoos
i poured it down, so i poured it down

and now i don't understand it
you don't mess with love you mess with the truth
and i know i shouldn't say it
but my heart don't understand 
why i got you on my mind

Hey there. Just a thought, it looks like blogging is a dying fad , but it still works for me; seeing that this is mostly a personal blog and i am not concerned about the hits. The past couple of days has been slightly rough for me, seeing that i am considering minor (?) surgery and have been taking antibiotics religiously. It is probably nothing to worry about though. Just feeling sleepy and tired due to the medicine. Then again, it's not all bad, considering nothing is lethal and i can opt not to do anything if i so wish for it.

Counting my blessings since it takes something like this, read, impacts deeply on a personal level, that makes me change for the better. You know, to re-evaluate life choices, behavior, and whatnot. I guess most humans are weak beings that don't appreciate life and what they have in it as much as they should till it throws them a curve ball.

Or maybe it's just me.

I've always known that i am too apathetic (something only i would know). Too empty, too little things that concern me. So i guess it's time to change that. But the simplicity can remain. I like simplicity and consistency.

Maybe for this very reason, i am terribly uninterested in politics. Yes, i do my due research, make sure i know who i want to vote for. But in the end, the results don't bother me very much.

Still, it will be interesting!

I haven't blogged about my wishlist for a very long time. The only pressing thing is, i want to grow out my hair and dip dye the ends a lighter ash shade. Right now, good progress have been made on the length:

Gonna continue keeping it layered :)

So... the colour i end up doing will probably be something like either of these:


Although say if i am not having an office job, im definitely trying a blue shade!

sigh

Ok time to end off with the 2 purchasable things on my wishlist at the moment:

A new 3DS XL in blue.

And i'm kind of taken by the iPad Pro, with the Apple Pencil of course. Another plus point its released in November. But i already have the iPad Air. Unfortunately the Apple Pencil is only for the iPad Pro. Decisions decisions.

Hi there !

i know it's been a long time since i blogged . okay , scratch that , it has been a really long time . sorry about the hiatus if you have been keeping tabs on this space .

sadly , i tend to blog most frequently when i am bothered about something and would like to pen down my thoughts for some closure . lately i have been doing that less .  i have since been rather detached as feelings have been so fickle and so fleeting that it is all a matter of perspective . nonetheless clinging on to those moments and making something out of it- that may be something philosophers do . that and being cryptic . 

but i do intend to keep up writing (especially since i want to be an author in the somewhat near future) . taking baby steps to improve slowly , somehow , somewhere . just thinking about adding this into the endless list of personal projects i have makes me cringe , a little .

here is a prelude to the almost completed latest personal project:


native stitch figurine , my painting on another different medium .

that's all for the random musings .

side note: i've been living and breathing too much fanfiction to be healthy at the moment .

i'm flying off to japan tomorrow and going off to stay with the white fluff ball today !

looking forward to my first trip this year :)  i'm guessing it should be exciting and fun enough without me wishing for it . wouldn't want to overdo it really .

let's hope i manage to pick up some gems there .

take care dears !
xoxo

we'll never get anywhere together and so the only way to head is apart .
 
HAPPY VEEDAY EVERYBODY !

gonna start this entry by proudly showing you the food shots i took recently:

-softshell crab maki
this was yummy ! and the aburi salmon was better but no photos for that
no prizes for correct guesses why not


-black seasame and nutella ice cream with waffle 
the waffle was delicious :D
you can try it at holycow creamery if you are interested


-pandan leaf chicken and beancurd hotplate  
can't go wrong with this :)
thai food at fareast


andddd


photos of cookie making with the girls and 2 guys last sunday ~
did not bad i would say .
cookies tasted not bad albeit a little sweet and not soft as i envisioned them to be .

how did my food shots do ?
in my opinion they turned out quite good but then again it may be just me .

random attempted shot of the moon while on a walk home:
which ended up with much bright lights but looking nice still

last but not least , photos of my new buys
(which is meant for CNY but i just wear them anyway)

tata !
enjoy the rest of the weekends



;)