Wonderlust ♥

hoho , ♥s my hair .
Unfortunately , i fail to take good shots to show it off :X


As you can see , you cannot see the back spikes >_<






Phew , no new warning letters ; imma safe still :)



Lolx really tired today , i kind of lack sleep , im getting lazier -or otherwise losing more motivation D:
and y'see , today's weather aint helping me much :X
Cold . Windy . Black skies . Me and MC are quite convinced to kick the idea of badminton aside and just curl up and sleep .


new years resolution=not to be too apathetic ! (although its a little late , and i doubt Ill stick to it) Ill undoubtedly try my best yo :D






Fathin: I like the rubiks cube!!! So cool!
yep , i like the black circles the best :)
MC: Hehe faster go eat XLB at CJ!
D: expensive ! next time when dining in CJ maybe ? but thats like a once a year thing ?
Ary: And hahas...MODOKI BADDDDD DER! dun let me see u tie hair, hmph!
haha , next time i go out with you i tie ok ? :)
Ary: LOL! Cannottt laaaa....must save moneyyyy...but will eat when there's sudden cravings maybeee?
hee , enjoy ~

Pic-filled update today cos the first thing i did when i reached home was to take pictures of my belated prezzies for the occassion :)
THANKS TO MARINA, SITI, WAN LING! ღ


this is how its packed :D

Here to update ! Taking a break from homework .
Not like doing homework acutally gets anything in acutally :X
Sighs .
I hope I'll manage to wake early tomorrow .

i wanna complain ! Have been eating alot and feeling bloated alot recently , idk why ! it so happens that i always get presented with a free full meal and one more after that :(
normally i would be happy , but this is a little scary .
D:
had lunch x 2 today , snacks and dinner as well D:

Haha .Happy birthday to Jackson (:

rini: ahhhh.... hope I finish my work soon...
haha, i hope so for you too!
rini: hey!!!! my photo!!! >.<>
bleh.. hmm, you want me take down? :X
jayme: Thanks.next timewe all dungoschool le!!
!! cannot, wait until next sem D:
MC: Haha lucky u to eat there! And happy bdae to J's dad?
yeps~ haha. thanks on her behalf too xD


In this world , it's hard to find real heartfelt sincerity ,
or someone who treats you just short of perfection .
i loved you because you used to be everything i wanted , everything i imaged you to be right in place .
but its over and done
waiting gets nowhere but it was all i could do .
Just another futile attempt which i knew but never regretted .


and it so happens i cant find anyone else who makes me feel the same way .
still , there are different ways after all
just not so definite .

Im feeling cheated !

trying to load this song , unfortunately i am failing :(
http://www.imeem.com/people/VcGFpc/video/x2MEHgqq/one_republic_mercy_angels_version_music_video/


TIRED .
dun wanna sch ! D:
blast the connection , im going to sleep soon :X
i need to update my hp playlist , any nice songs , send t me pls :)




i figured why its feels so abrupt and the proceedings weird ,
cos it has only been 7 days since .
im stuck again ,
these stupid tangled strings
why does it always happen in a manner that confuses me .
D:

Today i found another one of stump's prowess apart from the ones he already so stunningly posses . Hanging someone's com with each word he says ! Alright , so it happens to be a coincidence :X
but still , donttalktome !
After complaining to Jamie , this is her MSN nick --> You shall bear no same font with me!!!~ Jayme
alright alright , enough of this inside joke :d

i really hate nags , especially from you . Nobody asked , its an unwanted opinion . period .

As of today , have been feeling loads better :)
as much as i want to make myself snug under the duvets and think about you , as much i want to just not think about it at all ~

Went out with Jamiee and Godbrotherrrr :)
Gene went t CC as usual after CCK :D
Jamie and me went for tax retest . Phew . Finally that is over and done with , need i mention that tax upcoming test is next week ? :( and its going to be harddd .
more tests weeks to come too , i wanna cut some slack hey :X lucky they all arent stuck tgt . I must start working a little harder :)


♥s


pics of late .
new file , proof we went to visit Mother !





jayme: u dun have to do Romeo and Juliet! If we were both adults, my door's always open for u and romeo..
haha thanks~ :D dont worry , we wont freeload much . Hees ! ;) HUG !
MC: Wah..i sure can understand sunday's post..cos i dun really like being in my current jc too, etcetc
yeah , but we'll go all the way eh ! :)
Gene: Aw... Don't worry, I might not always approve/agree, but at the end of the day, Godbro will always be here for you! *HUGs
O_O..*stunned* how nice XD i wan claim many many free hugs from you ! ^_^
Ary: and no loooo thats not exaggerated..its an understatement
it is notttt ! :X

im feeling quite opressed again , i dont know why ... *sigh*
perhaps feeling a little out of place :(


I'll digress again , i dont exactly like the course im taking now , but its alright, bearable . Feels like prolonging schooling or something .
Matt says that he just wants to just pass , get his diploma and say byebye to school , cos it's not in line with his dreams . Hmm . finally a soul that feels the same way .
I figured a really long time ago , what would be ideal for me would be to take up a part time/full time job and do freelancing . And for that , i dont really need a diploma... Still , its safer to get one i presume.. Since i have the means and ability , might as well eh ? But there's no heart to it .
I have never had dreams about being an accountant , earning big money or travelling all over the world .

Just to do what i want , be recognized for it , and to earn enough with excess to spare , is all i really need .


I know I still have a long way to go . My drawings are not supremely extreme that it'll land me fame , i still have alot to work on , and im not sure if i'll ever get there at this rate im going..
& What's up with career ? Do we really need to have any in mind ? I just dont see the reason .
People can spend their lives slogging all the way up to the top , just to see it isnt what they want , they dont have the means , the tolerance . Financial crisis ? Retrenchment ? What's the point really ?
BLEH . I rather it simple .
Well maybe thats just me .


Im feeling restricted , or at least , i dont think im getting the amount of freedom i deserve .
Why do I have to report where im going , why and who i go out with ? Why am i restricted to the amount of time i can do this and that ? Why is it that the only things i can do that gets approval is things that i am not really keen on doing ? Why cant I do what i want ?
Why ?
Is it because of religion ? I dont believe its so restrictive .
I want alot of things i cant have .
If i follow my parents' idea of a model being ( i presume ) I'd be hoping that the world ends every single day , what would be the point of existence ?

Of course I always do the thing i do best , I dont think about it .

But when im pressured it does graze my thoughts . Because of this I too feel my life isnt optimal . Of course since Im not the only one with these sentiments , therefore i think , i'd get by .
Maybe im getting pessimistic , but im feeling everything just seems to be contradicting what i want . It doesnt fit into place nicely like it should . Life to me should be really carefree .

It's also prefectly normal for girls or even guys for that matter , to await the day that they'll finally find the right one for them . Since young , ive always believed that one day definitely , it'll happen for everyone .
Now i see , its difficult ; really . At the rate im going , I'll have to pull off a romeo juliet to get there .

Ok , i presume you people are pretty tired of my rantings already . Idk why i just cant help it right now :(
pleaseplease , get better soon ! :(

Lost shark shark today :'(
Went out with Jamie today t Rini's house to collect our tops , tried out rini's dress , chilled , got what we needed done after that .
Thanks Rini for taking the top .. I know you dont really like it because of the colour and it isnt what you chose . I'll make it up somehow ok :X
Long time no got out with rini ler:) tmr~ we are . I need a new hp accessory , strap feels empty
:(

Still , had fun today :)


stupid animosity everywhere , till im not able to think straight .
i feel like i still owe you something . Should i just throw away that thought ?
invigorated , yes . Carry on and there might be no turning back .

Hohoho :D
Lets start with mine and jamie's (i presume) favourite grp pic of the day- ystd .
(in respective order)

I digress . I hate this . I already knew it , already expected it , already interpreted it , already seen it coming , but i still hate this . My bad . Why after everything this past year , do i still place trust in you ? i must be crazy .

I dont want a part of this any longer . And you can take my word for that . Where you give happiness , you give twice the sadness .

Am stuck using the lousy wireless again , Ill go nuts soon :(:(
Will update pics tmr , no choice :(
Godbrother went to his CC today , leave me and Jamie stranded at CCK :(
Hahaha, Gene go out soon k ! wannnnttt cuttt haiirrrr
Wireless is totally horrible . *whines~*

Random thoughts ; reach out , take the initiative , old accquaintances and friends are good to go :]
=_= this is not a stump moto , it is what i have noted !

OK , lighter note , i wanna go out tmr . mayhaps with Mokona , Jackson ? idk how yet .
Feels rather tired .
Hmm , tmr tmr ! :D

so i guess it was only a matter of time :/
but the situation sucks . why does it have to be you :/
fine , whatever it is , i guess i could be pretty invigorated :}
♥

♥ cap~


GRR . Am veryy pissed again . SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP !!

thats the number of times i wanted to scream that out today , as well as in the midst of typing this . ive resisted and he can still think and call me disrespectful. wtf .
Its no wonder I can tolerate others really well since i have stood such a person for 18 years of my life and counting .
K , see , i wont even be typing all this down if im provoked say once . but it has already been the 6th time . RUBBISH .


1st day of 2009 started quite horribly , with me coming down sick . But its not too bad , so its fine i presume ~

Spent the first day with someone quite impt , met during the last year or so :)
so am pretty alright !
Just to clarify , not romantic interest . LoL . Romance now , quite dead for me :( as in the potentials kind .

on to the subject , i got riled at not once not twice , but thrice before i stepped out of the house. Hows that , 9 times for the day . i should keep some kind of record .
Gamed quite alot today , including my djmax .




The good thing about kids is that they are pretty naive , they dont need a reason to call you , they are free walking huggable plushes :)
Unlike some jerks who cant make you happy much , and can only anger you .

Gene: ! It's me ugly pic again! take down! lol . not ugly lah, dowan ! hees ;D

Fathin: Ouchie...! The burnt looks painful. Sue the permer!! Btw its tortoise year? Really?? Haha. Sounds funny.no, not really , dont believe ! >_< .. she permed herself :X

MC: Happy new year again! When gona pierce ears then? Duno whether shld i too should ! we go pierce tgt . Soon want ?
jayme: Happy Tortoise year!!XD
thanks , happy new yr too you too !! XD

i love night outings and nightwalks !
so 2009 is the year i say goodbye to you ?

Staying home for countdown

Gene asked for an entertaining blog entry , but to be honest , i have no idea what to blog about , pardon me :X
Just click on my blog links and visit sites that have updates will you ? :D


Tmr will be waking early in quite long time . I wonder if I'll be able to make it .
The time isnt too right .

Lunching with Jamie and Gene everyday , make it tradition k :D
Gene is learning new Jap phrases at a very good pace ! hai , good job :D Sensei is not very happy to hear a tirade of John praises though :(
Have been going JP with Jamie to walk around quite alot these days , saw my cousin thr working again :)
feeling quite tired everyday when i wake , hates it ! D:


Im sorry , I didnt mean too .
Persisting will only hurt more i believe , but its unfeeling to say give up , its not worth it . Even if its true . Everyone just finds their own way eventually (:

-DONE!-

im getting tired :X
our timings are really a disaster .

why are there pixels? D: tell you what . i need a haircut :(