I can't believe it's 4 months since I've blogged.
If I'm being completely honest, I've been feeling pretty down the past couple of months. Objectively speaking, life should be going well- no major problems, financial stability, pockets of time to hang out here and there. But underneath the surface, I've been feeling pretty burdened with work responsibilities, and I suppose, a mid-life crisis of sorts.
I've known that creating is what brings my soul joy, and I want to give more time to foster this creativity, refine my works and explore an alternative career path. The thing is, I simply don't have the energy/mood/time for these artist dates, and when I do, I sometimes find myself not deriving any joy in the process, simply because I feel overwhelmed at the back of my mind.
And so, I constantly rewire my mind, to make it a point to fit in the time, to let go of things that don't serve me well- i.e. worrying, but it's a vicious circle and I always find myself cycling back to the same point. If I don't make it a conscious effort to rewire, tasteless as it sounds, I'll just spiral down and not get anything done. In fact, I started writing this post a few months ago and came back to it on two occasions feeling the same, and what's more in the middle of yet another reset.
Suppose I need to clear my mind and remind myself to live in the moment, taking in and giving appreciation to all the things that ought to matter. Welp, hope you're not having as much of an existential crisis as I am. Toodles till next time!
