Hello ! did you miss me while i was gone ?

sorry for the long wait . as y'all probably know by now , i've been living and breathing work this week so i haven't exactly had the time to catch that much of a breather . i'm grateful that i finally have some time now , but i remain rather perturbed about the fact that today is already a sunday and i don't have much time left .

in fact i had the urge to rant a couple of days ago because lack of time and lack of sleep increases my crankiness levels . still . visiting this space always helps ! i feel this sense of tranquility settling , but it's almost always disrupted by some strange bug paying a late night visit to my room =-= .

as you can tell , this post will be more of a word post , so a little detour and picture before i continue .

i've been doing some research on colouring techniques online and found this tutorial i favourited in my deviantart account quite some time ago:
http://yuni.deviantart.com/art/Coloring-technique-61468467?q=favby%3Ashadow611%2F3321260&qo=538

so i went ahead and tested it on my perona piece:
it's obviously still a work in progress so stay tuned .
skin is perfectly ok but hair is not so . will be tweaking it a little , hopefully i can get desirable end results .

also this is increasing my urges to get a tablet since i feel it'd definitely help with the colouring process .
current wishlist include a tablet , camera and jamie and my japan trip .
which hopefully i can get a camera first to bring to the japan trip late this year .
geez . i seem to be living on minimum subsistence and so i conclude that  i need more money .

on to the next point of this post , i realized that self-centered people do have a lot of common ideologies .
even if the degree and type varies . the one that rings most true is probably this statement:

we accept the love we think we deserve

what do you think ?

i never shortchange myself and i do live by this principle .
deserve is a strong word which could translate to having high expectations ; because nobody would think they deserve less , but rather more ; and there are many reasons why the other party doesn't catch your interest , be it petty trivial reasons or something more major . nonetheless i don't believe it's easy to find someone deserving .

i admit that is most likely because we would be looking at a perfect person , a perfect situation and/or a perfect timing but no one is perfect , people fall short and circumstances and time may not be in favor .
i suppose over time , things may change yet remain the same .

it's hard to explain really , but what i'm trying to say is , some opinions may change , but ultimately it won't affect my ideals and it won't hamper my way of living . kind of like an adaption and not a change .

also , this serves as a reality check to give and take as and when deemed fit .
to move forward , risks need to be taken and decisions have to be made .
not to just remain headstrong and stubborn .

now i really need my sleep , i'm too lazy to blog anymore so this will have to suffice for a week
(or maybe a couple) , sorry if it bores you !

pardon me , i'm still very sulky about my 6 day work week ... *gloom* 

working on perona when i wake up and i hope that helps to make me feel better . ciao .
thnxfordroppingby :D