it's that time again where i nurse the penchant for being a petulant spoilt brat .
and i'm not even shy to admit it , that's what being petulant and spoilt does to you .

yet another one of my contradictory traits cuz you know i'm normally rather accommodating ;

got a feeling this penchant is being set in motion this time around by the bout of illness i'm down with .
as well as a couple of things such as i've got an infection at the side of my eye , which i hate because having something off with my face irks me like no tomorrow . and also all this negative energy is not good for my weight as it keeps fluctuating which sucks cuz it should stay constant or go down .

honestly feel sick and tired and ready to maim someone because i have irregular anger spikes at petty and trivial things . maybe it's honestly petty and trivial , but at that point in time it meant something , so i really don't see why i should regret any of my actions .

petulant and spoilt means i throw my weight around and expected to be treated like a boss .

you can take a step back and judge that this is a horrible characteristic to have ,
but if i can't take things lying down , i won't take things lying down .
if i feel like being petulant and spoilt , petulant and spoilt i will be .

at least i have a sense of achievement when i get what i want , thanks to the people who are always there , or happened to be there for me . since i have been feeling this more often in the recent months , if you are smart enough , you can draw a parallel as to why .

i think i just need to rant and feel normal after waking up .
stupid sickness is getting to me , can feel my eyes getting red and teary due to fatigue .

on a side note ,
http://shadow611.deviantart.com is updated .

do check it out !
more on that next time :)

( i know it's garishly warped that i ask you to do me this favour after you have listened to my rant so heartfelt apologies are here . bai till the weekends . )