coolzoro

Blogged the first bit in sch..

Ill try to be home around 7,

den must try my best to complete the report.

& After RWPS report, there's still BLAW to do which is due, Tues.
Sians-

Now on about birthdays.

Jamie's birthday is happening this week :)

Then how to get present in time?!

Planplanplan.

Lol.. side note,

realized that yuu watase has another new series again i think. imadoki.

idk why...

but main char seems to look like tamahome..

yes, again =_=.

noooo!

Gene's birthday is also coming up soon, national day.

the plan should be out soon i think >_<

some food plans okay? ^^

Debra's birthday is end month.. Lots of time to do everything D: Hee.

& as for his, i dont know...

the date on the profile changed ler,

to a date tht is already past.

maybe he just doesnt want me to do anything about it. So about sunday, idk. *sighs* :(

I shouldnt bother too much

'm not in a position too anyway.

but, why is there still always a; but still.

Guess the rest ain't back yet.. IMM maybe?

Im going to spulrge on my cookies n cream ice cream,

den do my report.

It's 8:07pm now,

really got to hurry.

next time :)

i dont know about alot of things.

i can only hope

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About 4 pages or so of RWPS down.

& Im here to relax a little..

Contrary to popular belief, I am actually a very slow writer, and an even slower drawer really.

Lol.

What i am typing sounds weird. today writing comes easy for this entry.

Writing come easy for REPORT too! AHHHH!

bleh.

You know,

was surfing thru deviantart jus now to find nice Grimmjow pics..

granted, one exceptionally nice one to make my day,

(GrimmXBya) :D

but i am extremely horrified/perplexed that quite a few

....

joker pictures,

Grimmjow joker hybrid pictures,

Grimmjow Ryuk & suspiciously joker hybrid,

hyde joker hybrids,

all appeared.

(I specifically typed 'Grimmjow'. How is this possible?!)

Whoah.

So now everybody is joker crazy?

But granted,

joker really is nice!

Really really nice movie!

Really much joker screentime!

probably gnna re-watch soon!

HEEEE.

situations shape us.

times like this, i really want just to be, tgt, frevr.

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Today, there's been alot of depressing things...

But now im feeling better,

So shan't complain too much. (:

Still,

I hope that all will be ok.

Sigh.

For one, my attendance now, its bad again.

1st warning letter for a few modules le.

Siannn.

Have i really been skipping classes that much?

and i only realized today.

Haiz.. Mus catch up on some things too.

and thr are other more alarming issues than this.

why why why

Ok~ cant mope abt too much.

mus get together and try to do... RWPS REPORT!

So now this entry is an attempt to get my writing juices flowing!

Excuses.. :X

i have to wake super super early for GEMs tmr too.

Please make it... haha

Going to watch Gene vids later too :D

Patti & D6!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jlQpEQCrsJY

Im advertising see~

RWPS now,

all the best to me ^^

most things to do with you,

they always make me feel better.

i dont care if its not right, if its not real,

to just take it like this till the day it breaks.

you were there and thts what matters fr nw ♥

& i think you dont get alot of things im trying to tell you, but oh well ♥

be my escape;

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Great. Tax might really be done for.
I cant study now, drunk a little too much, a little too tipsy, cant focus much.
Only completed looking thru notes,
some tutorials.
Cant access friendster either.
For a few days already. But i guess its better this way.
I guess I should turn in first,
den try to wake up earlier tmr & den mug.

I wonder where you are
I wonder
what you're thinking of tonight
I wonder...
Maybe your alone
Maybe you've been cryin' just like me
I wonder...
I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me...
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you...
Maybe you got scared
Maybe I had nothing else to say
But I love you...
So baby now my life's a mess
Cause, I couldn't love you any less
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
Too soon
It's not right
It's not fair
It's in you baby cuts like a knife
what if you were the love of my life
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious, too soon
I wanted to be there for you, like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you too love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now I'm Staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

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I think tmr's tax will be suicide as well.

Sigh. And IS isnt even over. How about the rest. Really wish there where lesser things to do, to think about. Thr's too many, too many. So hard to manage; cant what I want just come to me? It's not much. Everything just cant be plain & simple, I just want to sleep the entire day away again. Arghhh. have to tax now. try at the least. after having a taste, its hard to turn back; you cant mean so much.

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Tmr meeting Fathin & sis to pass present!~

Set the meeting time at 12.

Was really happy as i thought i could finally sleep longg...

and then.

realized im having GEMs project tmr.

T_T sighh.

830.. So I'll be leaving ard 1130. Hopefully wer'e finished by then.

Sleep!

So I guess I shall go offline soon. Study a little, draw a little, TURN IN!! RAWR!!~

Byee.

cos i already know

once August draws nearer and nearer

the sadness'll get greater and greater

no matter, i know I'd still cling on.

but perhaphs.. if its just too hard..

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Msn DP! Axel+bbt! <3

Ugh.. supersuper tired.

I dont think I can make it tmr le.. but shh.

Lol.

Viva La Vida by Coldplay, anyone has to send me..? >_<

today waited damn long to take the certicficate..

& when finally got it, realized..

My name was missing one letter.....

so leh.. take back lor.

I will get new one via mail.

Haiz.

Stupid holding room, squeezy, stuffy..

Shoes almost killed me too.

I have 2 additional blisters, or maybe more.

moody+headache-y;

waste 5 hrs plus in no good conditions!! food deprived too, cos only had breakfast, no lunch. plus, too packed to study, sit on flr not chairs.. so psp. & den headache. a little.

I got lost finding my way back to bugis MRT too.
Feet painn!
Sobxx.

At least wen reach JE felt a little better.

Especially when youre the first person i see :)

Coincidence? maybe maybe not..

Den Gene, William and William's friends were there too.

^_^

Gene wore till v formal sia.

But the v formal, v cool leh!

Too bad lah, I forgot to pic.

Although debate din win.. But its alright ah. As long as got try, its great. :)

Gene=cool!

Then aft tt they went kbox le.. William bringing his Jap friend thr since last day.

I wonder whether they went Clementi or Just upstairs.

I dont particularly like kbox..

cos i dont particularly like singing.

Only the beer mix is good :)

But dont have Gene's parents, so cant >_<;

Dead tired. Need sleep.

Been there done that,

it'll get better.

真的可以这样吗？

哈哈，不想太多就好了啦。

Lavi! & Allen

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Woots; im back pretty early today :)

So i guess shall blog first, later try to concentrate on tax and FF..

I mean..

tax.

taaxxxx!!

mus limit FF or not my tax will die.

Argh. I wanna FF :'(

Hmm.. I realised.

My fringe has grown back le!!

Muahaha. :)

stupid hairdresser cut until so thin! and one side cut so short!

Im gladd its grown back :D

see:

Fringee!

Some pics of Gene too! Convenient as ive transferred pics from phone to pc just now.

camera war o_O

(@ one of Gene's fav fc)

Gene complains my pics always has him looking away..

So see, improve le~

Dont have any really recent pics of Jamie, so mus take soon ok!

im no sure if im allowed to post this... flamboyancy..but oh well.

far east :)

More GrimmjowxOrihime. Hahaha!

I spam my favs!

fr Rini ;D

support Grimmjow yes?

Den tmr have to go NAFA!

cos my O lvl work was submitted fr SYF. (2yrs back le)

Won bronze, so mus go fr

SYF Arts & Crafts Exhibition 2008 Award Presentation & Opening Ceremony =_=

i hope i wont die of boredom;

cos its from 1.30 to 6.30

& because...

(copy paste directly from email from mdm keh)

After the award presentation :

Nigel would have to stand next to your work to be prepared to talk about your art work .

Please be prepared. I hereby attached your write up. Please read.

(his work won gold btw. hehe. congrats :D)

Michelle, you will be ushered to a designated holding area upon receiving your award.

(sigh. so i will be sian-ed standing thr bah =X.

Fa mei.

But still, I would never want to trade places with Nigel XD)

So thr goes the movie :(

Dont see it as you dont seem to get anything from the world

Cos thr are seldom things tht come free anyway.

But once thr is something tht lands in front of you,

no matter how small,

its still something.

So take, & appreciate.

Life's often unfair, but wer'e strong enough to pull through anyway.

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Have been choinging FF crisis core for quite abit :D

Hearts Zack!

& what abt my tax?

sighh.

The Click Five- Flipside

It's been a long, long time since everything was cool

I shoulda seen it coming

but I guess I'm not the only fool

There's something growin' on the outside

Too much missin' on the inside

Should I waste my time and let you lead me on and on and on and on

Waiting on the day when I'm complete

Without you I'm doing what I can to let you be

Making sure there's nothing showing on the outside

Somethin's dying on the inside

I'm still broken but I'm free

I'll see you on the flipside

I've got a bruised up heart

But I'm still hangin' out

I should take it easy but I'm still gonna get around

There's something growing on the outside

Too much missing on the inside

Should I waste more time when everything is done and done and overdone

Waiting for the day when I'm complete

Without you I'm doing what I can to let you be

Making sure there's

Nothing showing on the outside

Something's dying on the inside

I'm still broken but I'm free

I'll see you on the flipside

Nothin' showing on the outside

Something's dying on the inside

Waiting for the day when I'm complete

Doing what I can to let you be

Nothing showing on the outside

Something's dying on the inside

I'm still broken but I'm free

I'll see you on the flipside

Quite a nice song, just got it today :) Really tired, idk why. It mus be the going through of 3 tutorials in a row thts got me like this, waking too early to travel back hm frm grandmother's house den to JP.Or perhaphs just too much hitting of bullies. My hand still stings a little. Though maybe its just you.

its not tht empty, its just pretty sad. bittersweet.

秘密

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Today went to watch debate in sch..

Fathin couldnt meet me for present giving today T_T.

Ystd..

Gene said will wake me up de, said go support.

End up only call me wen its closing in to 8.

Den no time for breakfast le.. see, so mean :(

Hehe, Kd.

Den only had enough time to reach sch on time.

-Which i didnt neither.

Not tht bad alright, few mins late only!

End up SB was pretty gd.

Haha.

Gene pwn all de!

Hee.

Well, Sarah and Hannah too.

Jamie pretty good, though at first like abit nervous.

but aft that, the 2nd opponent made themselves totally not threatening..

with their

1st speaker....

2nd speaker......

and 3rd speaker.

LoL

& so Jamie also pwn le.

Really funny de, their points.. Cute sheep reactions to dem :D

sad lah, nobody video :X

Anyways, really gd job :)

its not so much so of, its a gd excuse, Ill buy it,

but more of,

because I'll never believe you're bad at heart,

I trust everything you say.

怀的也是。不知道为什么只会接受，不会生气。

虽然想，但还是气不了。

people always tend to be too judgemental, too biased

i dislike that especially when its directed against you.

but...

我还是会站在你身边。
too stubborn.

thr's no happy ending, but what're we to do?

conscience. control. not enough.

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i know my resolve; it's not strong enough.
i dont want to lose anything;
but in the process;
i might just lose everything.

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Today has been pretty tiring..

Swensons at Bugis!

Cls outing cum Nigel's bdae celebration bah :)

Its pretty good;

salmon n mushroom pasta + frosted chocolate malt.

Haah, i remembered lol!

Then the rest went to ply at Bugis arcade,

I left ard 7

haha, happy birthday in advance to Nigel.

Although he wont see this D:

WenBin forgot abt my memory card T_T...

Sian.

I wnna ply my psp de :X

Waited fr nthng today,

so nx until a little better.

4 games :)

Caught a stitch too~

Actually wanted the evil blck stitch(cutest stitch, bigger huggable version)

but dunno why its already gone..

Rawrr~

And the stars

Fell out of the sky

And my tears

Rolled into the ocean

Now I'm looking

For a reason why

You even set my world

Into motion

'cause if you're not

Really here

Then the stars

Don't even matter

Now I'm filled

To the top with fear

But it's all

Just a bunch of matter

'cause if you're not

Really here

Then I don't want

To be either

I wanna be next to you

Black and gold

dont strt with all tht dear crap

when you dont mean it

if you dont really mean it

then dont play with my heart

i do really like you

but im not stupid for you

well alright

not tht stupid.

what i really want..
for us to be tgt right
pls dun make me settle fr anythng less T_T

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Why Tousen..? );

Strangely enough, i got this when surfing for Axel.
Shuhei

Blogg~

Tmr is finally breakfast day :)

No more sch so early!

(Nvm tt i havent managed to wake for the past few days. >__<)

Tmr is also supposed to be bball day,

but dunno why, thr seems to be no one online tonight.

O_O;

Hence cant confirm.

Siann.

-must slp now so will be able to wake :D

do i really;

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New blogsong~

after love after love [repeat]

do you believe in life after love

I can feel something inside me say

I really don't think you're strong enough,

Do you believe in life after love

I can feel something inside me say

I really don't think you're strong enough,

Weather is good now;

and argh,

another early lesson tmr at 8.

Why does this always happen!!

No more early lessons, I want my sleep!

Well,

on a brighter note,

new bbt shop opened at dover MRT,

tt means :D

bubble tea :DD

hee.

thinking abt it makes me happy

Hope it'll be open in the wee hrs tmr morning.

Please?

Dont thrash my dreams.

>___<

Haha,

so I'll be going to sleep dreaming of what to drink tmr.

Goodnight all :)

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Niceness, hence absoluteee likess! :)

Weather is nice over here.

But sigh,

rwps tmr, 1st thing in the morning at 8.

I wonder if I'll be able to make it on time o-O;

no more tears,

i'll smile for you,

cos that's what its all abt.

red, black, white^, green

あかい、くろい、しろい^、みどり。:D

i'll hope

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fangs ♥

Today did my facc tutorial before heading out.

Well part of it anyway;

Stuck at Statement of changes in equity >_<

Said I'd call Jamie,

but parent in the hall..

So lazy use phone ler.

Now just slacking online, chatting, reading.

siannnx,

cant seem to find nice new stashes :(

Today I also got motivated

to change my outlook.

If gene can do it, so can I.

Hehe.

Gene no online.. T_T

Recently i think he's been slping early

tts good.

but even on weekends? T_T.

Ive decided to embrace life, not shun it

I'll believe that the best is yet to come,

so that thr's something to always look forward too.

& try to be happy whenever possible cos

wer'e not getting any younger.

& its working pretty well.

Poor Nobel seems to be having bad stomachache :(

went to buy med today,

has to be specific one too.

I know i havent been taking care of my dog as much as i should

most of the responsibility is given to my mom.

i know, im just lazy,

been lazy for many years.

I'll try changing that too.

I'll do,

everything I do,

not because i should,

but becos i want too :)

im not that naive,

i just pretend to be.

i wont get angry,

i just get disappointed with you.

im hoping for the best for you,

pls dun screw up.

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你会离开吗？
可能都已经是注定我们该完全结束了。

但，
你懂吗，
当我有不高兴，烦恼，不满时
只要你对着我笑
其它的什么都不重要。
你的笑，以后还可以见到吗？

我喜欢有你照顾我，
喜欢有你陪着
我不要你离开。。
可是，
快该长大了。

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hearts.

you know,

youre not even trying.

it makes me want to stop trying as well.

still,

I'll have to try being sensible.

how tiring.

Din have enough time to update ystd.

well actually.. kinda lazy luh. D:

went to collect soccer balls fr WeiJie at JP,

1 fr myself, one fr him.

collection fee=1 soccer ball.

Hehe :)

Quite cute de, redblackcokeball.

-inflated ystd :D (ignore foot:D)

so after reaching home, pretty tired alrdy.

although took bus.

bleh.

mus be the laptop in bag. Heavyyy.

Sianx,

evryday taking bus though gt consession.

Today even more pro, can use up 4 rides

left no more for the return trip..

& so, bus lor.

Not bad art again (:

Something long ago :D

Oh well.

Today is pretty alright.

I wonder abt tmr.

Have to try touching cost or facc tutorial soon.

nxt time :D

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Tmr IS is at 9.

3hrs.

Bleh.

>__<

Break

Then,

RWPS.

3hrs.

Ohhhh,

i really dont like tmr's schedue. :(

Right, time to go, slping soon.

nxt post will be something better alright :D

& thanks for the walk back :)

you're nice company to have too

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Axel skin, here i come~

soon.

hee.

abit lazy to change right now..

But for all you know,

might be a different skin when you see this post

Perhaphs.

Ystd & today was also in a pretty bad mood

idk why.

well, at least its only the earlier part of the day.

i cant understand myself either.

then whats more thr came along more things to dampen my already bad mood.

stupid morning traffic,

with stupid women carrying big handbags,

inconsiderately banging into everyone everywhere they go,

stupid guys who stand behind you and grab the pole in front of you,

and proceed to treat it like its all theirs,

not to mention old women pushing you, push, push push!

the exit doesnt disappear!

ARGH!

and the best thing is,

lesson starts 30 minutes late anyway!

So all that for...?

No more train for me in the early early early mornings.

No more!!

situations like these, thr's no way to be optimistic about!

Oh well.

At least tmr morning will be more relaxing.

mus collate survey now first.

byee.

each time i fall,

i pick myself up faster.

and grow a little stonger.

its ok,

im still learning,

& ive grown.

i know i may be still confused,

at times i dont know what im thinking,

and what im feeling.

why does it keep changing.

but its alright,

what will be will be.

if its inevitable,

it cant be avoided.

just...

what will become of us?

i have my new, you have your old.

but when it doesnt seem to happen,

i turn to you for everything he doesnt give.

have to find a way to change this somehow.

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Tml is GEMs again,
school at 8 again..
T_T
sighhh.
well, gnna go cafe drink probably after.. so tts motivation

Why are there just so little..

Whenever the world seems unfair,
irritating,
& absolutely unbearable,
thr's always a part of me that aches in the fondness of you.
belief that you are everything that is right.
& the rest just dont seem to come close
becos theyre just passing by.

Havent had this feeling for quite long,
but im not so happy.

Stupid moodswings.

Today i realized that ironically,
a lecturer could read me like an open book.
& im surprised,
it hasnt happened before.
But the feeling of being understood by someone you dont really know,
is pleasant.
Because normally its me playing his role.
& its people like him and him,
who make me feel that there is hope.
There are still a handful.

I know I have been wanting to work harder.
Same goes for everything;
its all or nothing.

there's light even though it's dark.
nightt.

就算你是对的，
只可以等自己去事事，
去接受。
我想证明给你看你是不对的，
现在的我们是没有错的。。
其实,
在我心底了解你是对，
可是，
我现在就是不想接受。
不想, 不会。

人如果爱，就是很笨。

not just yet.
I dont want to ever, ever.

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niceee Axel :)

Words:

No one would miss me

thats not true...I would. -sounds a little wrong. oh well. to everyone impt D:

I think Ive outdone myself with this blogskin.

Been trying to find new ones,

cant seem to find anything better.

& somehow,

there always seem to be something wrong with the ones I like.

e.g. Picture error,

file removed.

format.

etc.

Well,

There is one that seems pretty fine,

but a little plain.

I'll consider.

Comments?

http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=119073&action=Preview
see the preview!~

Should be getting to slp soon.

Sorry Fathin.

couldnt pass the present today..

Kind of tied up.

Tmr too, cosfest with Marina, Siti and Wanling..

Then somemore.

But then,

have to go home early tmr,

Sundayy.

Dont think ill be able to make it if im at pasir ris.

so maybe just meeting them fr lunch :)

Sometimes i too think,

i could be having a much more interesting life.

But im too comfortable with the way it is now,

to even try to break out D:

Its a nice feeling to be content.

but why do most people always desire something more, something new?

Hmm. Rants.

takecare,

cheerup.

just wait for time, & pull through like you knew you always could

seed & stump;

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Survey finally done~
happy! Hehe.
Poor Hyuu-chan seems pretty neglected,
must make sure to give more attention to it.
*huggs*
:D

Sigh. Hyuun-chan.
& im using wireless again.
Someone remind me to call singtel..
=_=
yes, again.
On second thought, can ask jason too
:D

Bed now,
Byee

这次是有一种原因。

Because your certain actions were,
and still is,
always the way i thought was ideal,
always the way that i want to do things.
But,
which i am sometimes too hesitant and uncertain to do so,
& they never happen.

but i saw all that in you; & there has never been anyone except you,
there's always a reflection of me,
and then some more.
& i slowly came to admire you just being the way you are,
some faults and what not,
were all just minors.

I knew it all happened before i even realized it started.
still, i dont understand you much.
Dont know much of what there is to you
cos there has never been much of a chance too.

you used to be so special,
and im putting all that behind.
cutting the already frayed rope
isnt exactly a happy feeling.
somehow, im afraid that it'll one day tear completely
but as long as i dont think about it,
it doesnt matter.
Remember its the only way,
better for you and for me.

someone whose smile,
makes me feel like Ive been holding back.

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___/\___ = shark attack?!

Lol.

Something tt caught my eye somewhere.

really tired..

But cant go to bed cos haven completed my surveys :X

idk,

but recently ive been really slpy

i cant seem to get up and out of bed..

really cant seem to bring myself to do it

and when i wake,

aura of tired-ness is all around me still. fr the whole day.

pls dont let this be permanent!

well, its my fault,

what i get for;

staying up late for last months

and not sleeping well.

Sighhh.

I want to sleep now!!!

But I have surveys!!!

Stop procrastinating.

Mus. Hurry. With. Surveys.

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Hehe, hyuu-bin chan got more compliments :D
MC got good taste.
Sharkk plushies are teh best :)

Gwwwrrrlls,

just had Fujitsu set up to sch's network
so
tt's one problem taken care of.
Somehow,
my modem isnt working properly either.
soooo
can't use my house internet,
stuck with wireless,
super slow,
and couldnt sign in msn for the past hour!
and i cant post pictures!!!
my Grimmjowwww!!

Rwwwrrr;
=X

Everything is spoiling i tell you. Blehh.
Tml class at 9, going offline
to try do abit of stuffs before sleeping~

this slip up,
just for this last time.

想你是不应该的，
好不应该，
但当你走了没说再见
就乱了,
忍不住就问了,
因为我觉得好空, 好不舒服。。
这次就给它是最后一次。
不可以了。
这样就是在看后了。

我绝对不会再去关了。

给我本事，
慢慢耙全部的心较给他。
不关我们的机会有多少。
好少
好少
:X
但找到他也是一种幸福我不像失去。
喜欢，就要给最好