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Just that once was enough.., but still, i hope for more.

by - April 27, 2007

Hihiz. new post tt i am going to type for the 3rd time liao so appreciate it!!! typing 3rd type cuz notebook prob, keep hanging so i gotta restart it.. sianx.
jamie got blog ler.. yay! haha. i will try to write more about her in future as she complain tt she not enough screen time lo..


LoL.inspired by her blog, i think i will first describe my own characteristics and hope that i get understood better by her and eveyone else.. here goes.

Being me, I am more of an introvert... dun really like associating with people much actually, especially girls, because of bad experiences, find tt they dont make trustable friends..they backstab people, like to push the blame on others, etc. but as i moved along, realized not all of them are that bad. but still, it's one of the reasons why i prefer guy company. Also, if someone keeps on doing something i dont like.., I normally will keep it inside, but i will be very very irritated and spend almost the rest of the day in a bad mood. little people have the ability to make me happy again, and sometimes, i just put on a false front to make people satisfied...
however, there are many people that i know and like, so i guess i'm not that bad.. those people tt i am friends with, normally its them making the first move de.. hehe. i dun really put much effort in making friends, but sometimes do, here and there.Therefore, you will find the friends that i have are limited.
Also I am not really very considerate regarding other's feelings, in the sense that I dont and wont say anything comforting, the most i will do is scold the offender.. , so you wont hear me saying anything comforting the such..though i sometimes do say such things..but to a minimal, just enough to suffice, less enough to make you feel i dun care. sounds v negative right? but actually, i really do care. but i cant put those feelings into words.. so please dont find me if you need any cheering up.. you will find that i'm not much of a help, and i wont change.

Another thing about me, I am the kind to bear grudges.. though i am trying to change that.

Also, i hate saying the word: sorry.
if its something light, like banging into someone, then its ok. but in serious arguments, I'll never use that.. never. unless I feel its really my fault.. or the other party cries.. i may feel bad.. but I will still keep silent.so there. unless the other someone comes and tells me sorry first, i may consider returning it..in a sense, i guess my pride is really too much. haha. but that's just the way i am. But not many people will experience this as I have quite a high tolerence level. Also, if you have patched up with me totally after an argument, kudos to you...; as you have to make it up to me first. in a sense, i like to be pampered i guess?=X. haha. and my best friendship bonds are actually forged with these people, as proven by two individuals...

Ok. i guessed i covered the bad aspects of myself already. LoL. but i can make a nice friend. seriously..Simply put because I never spill secrets and am forever loyal and wont betray my friends ^^

after writing the above, hope that u will understand me more lo.. if not it will be wasted. there is no need to write anymore or elaborate on the good aspects of myself as that is not the point here. good points are meant for others to discover. time to move on to my actual post LoL.


These few days, been going out loads lately. I guess i like being outside. but the bad thing now is that there seems to be nothing to do. xcept for arcading<3
also tired of the many lectures, as well as the tutorials, those that are boring. really feel like skipping it lo. but school cannot play maple, then dunno wad to do if i skip it, except for taking a walk around school.T_T Also very angry that the climate very hot lately.. cannot wear my nice shirts as they are long sleeved, i will sweat like crazy lo.. so HOT!!!~
also got to climb so many flights of stairs. lucky i go hiking lo.. if not de stairs will be very impending ler.
Enough of my complaining. but i really think i gotta find a new hobby lo. bball and swimming.. to sian to do it alone. i mean who does those sports alone unless they are training??? all my friends dun wanna get dark. haha.. but i really wanna find new bball partners leh. Sad la, the guys i know in sp not enough and not enthu enough, like in secondary school... not will go bballing everyday ler.
I really am quite lazy to describe all that i have done recenty. I will summarize today by saying that i bought two tops and a pair of jeans when out shopping with jamie and debra today.. i like the top from ip zone tho its a guy's cut.. haha.Never call Michelle Choong along as she seems very very busy with her jc work =((. her present still with me leh. vvv belated le.. haha.got cheated by the jeans too.. not $10 but $10 off.. but nvm, as i like it alot.
That's all i wanna say..
Also want to mention tt i only saw him once last week on a Tues... and not the same bus.. I hope that my luck this week will be better.. i mean a whole week and only sighted once??? sad la. I really wonder if i should carry on like this. if i go deep into this, its very hard to stop liking ler. so currenty i am putting my feelings on hold lo. should i find someone new or stick with someone that I dont have a chance with?.. and the next problem is that i cant seem to find anyone new. hahax.. how unlucky =(










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